15.Jan.24: Another Lap Around the Sun
wow I haven't updated my blog since last year! ahaha! ahhhhhh.
Happy beladed new year to everyone! also, as of posting this, it's my birthday!!
I am officially 21 now. My engine's been running for two whole decades, and then some. crazy huh?
To be honest, I am not as lucky as i was last year around my birthday. I have had a very stressful, depressing, and overall negative start to this year. I was hoping the tide would turn before now, but you can't really control these kinds of things. Even now, pn the actual day of my birthday, i can not celebrate or feel good about myself in good conscious. But for my own sake I will have to move on and try to not think about it too much. It's scary being 21 anyway!
If i had to summarize 2023 in one phrase: Testing waters. I did a lot of new stuff in this year. I reignighted old friendships, went to events, overall i ventured out of my comfort zone... not incredibly far, but far enough. It wasn't stress free, i had plenty of moments of falter and even retreated in. It could have been better... but i tried.
And if I were to manifest my hopes for 2024, I would say... branching out. I would like to step out of my den again, and try even more things than last year. But most importantly I would like to stand firm in my plans. I have a habit of shutting down in fear, and I end up regreting it each time. This year, I want to see my plans through to the end, if possible. It's going to be a tough process, But i know it will help me in the long run.
I also want to get a job... and my license before the end of the year. i already have to renew my permit. I just want to be done with that chapter of my life and yet it sticks with me.
As things get rougher in my day to day life, this website ends up becoming dusty and untouched for weeks at a time. I gotta apologize for that. I love this site, I will never forget about it. But I'd rather update when I have the time to be careful and deliberate with what I had. Like a full blog post, or adding a tested and true shrine page or something. i think it makes it harder to be consistent but ahh.... I dunno. I guess an additional goal of the year is to update my website more!
I hope everyone reading this has started off their year in better shape than me. Thanks for still sticking around! I'm sharing a slice of computer cake with you all.
-Leo